Working~

currently working in breek's cafe as a barista...
it is quite fun life here.....
but you....you change everything ever since you started working here...
i got over attracted to you....
maybe...over attracted...
i wish...we can still be good friends..
you are the first person to bring me to meet your friends...
i have never experience it before...
but i always make you angry...
am i a failure...
am i just a toy to you?will i ever be appreciated by you?i hope....that time will come soon~

Flying moments~

work is fun....new experience for me...im now a barista trainee...currently,im the only guy doing dining or bar...pay has just out today...im so happy...
but then...
you are in my mind 24/7....even at work...i really miss you...
everyday i would wait and wait hoping to see your message...
maybe its true wat people always says....
everything in this world is balance...Yin & Yang~
after being happy the whole day,its time to be disappointed and sad at night...
are you scared of me???are you avoiding me???i think i push you too much...
you need your space...
i was shocked to see get that you did a new profile and never add me...
you have time to on9 and see fb.....
but dont have time to message me???even message me one message per day would be awesome and brings happiness to my day...
i think its my fault...
i'm sorry...jia you k...form 4 is tough...i know...but do not overstress yourself k~enjoy school life....the life after secondary will be very tough...appreciate secondary life...enjoy it...do not be angry at small things...be strong...
everyday i wake up...i see my phone...and see get your pic...its my wallpaper...
i hope next time,i could wake up and see your real life face~
i cant sleep every night thinking bout you.....
im worried bout you...
but then,it seems you are doing good...
i am a burden to you...
I LOVE YOU,Tian Sze....
take care~let fate decide ba...take care of the present k...its from Japan oh... ^^

sTiLL~

you no reply me...i wonder how are you doing...i miss you...i miss chatting with you...
are you trying to avoid me???
are you alright???
am i troubling you???
am i giving you stress???
whatever it is,i hope you would tell me directly...i will be patient and reasonable to everything you are going to say...i hope can go out with you again..like last time... ^^

Christmas Morning~

i now in Henry house...christmas eve was very boring...i guess im getting old...people starting to forget me...

i still remember last year my phone receive wishes till phone lag but this year,it seems all the messages have been eaten by something...

this is christmas morning..i hope today will go more smoothly,more enjoyable and more memorable...

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!~ ^^

There IS still far to go~

you did not reply me after you said you cut yourself...i was so worried you know...i cant sleep thinking bout you...wonder how you are...are you hurt...

dont give up yet...its just PMR....you still have SPM,maybe STPM or graduation...so why worry...PMR is just a little part...now that you know the feeling of bad result,learn from it...keep it in your heart...go the best of SPM....aim the highest...

DONT GIVE UP YET!JIA YOU!All the best~GAMBATEH ^^

you can do it....

Wow~

i just spend the whole day alone...without any friends...i think this is the first and only day this happened...

i dont want the feeling anymore...it sucks...

now...

its christmas eve....i hope...i can have a great day especially with friends...i hope i can feel the christmas magic...Merry Christmas everyone...

Just return~

I just came back from Japan not long...Although it is only one week,the experience I got was unlimited~but i think...the thing i will miss most over there is the peace i got~It was winter over there...I had a lot of fun but everyday I go through,i miss you...I really wanted to call you...but I got no idea how to call back Malaysia...there were a lot of codes...I really did tried~
When i came back here,it was as if I've never existed before...Is it because I had so much fun in Japan so i had to suffer a little here??
You didnt reply me for about 6 days...tats one week...i really very sad and scared at the same time...
I think.........im not prepared for you yet...
I made you sad and angry so much time...I cant stand it anymore...seeing,hearing or even feel that you are sad or angry makes my heart very very pain...
I dont want it to happen anymore...I have a present for you...its from Japan...
do keep it properly k ^^
Joyce Tan Tian Sze
you have been very precious to me...
you will always stay in my heart...
i will still wait for your reply...
i really have fall in love with you....
i really like you...
i really love you...
Thank You
I LOVE YOU a lot ^^